Don't be mad at me...just think of it as my way of trying to add to the suspense and intrigue to the story, okay?
.That, and the fact that we had some computer problems. Well, in truth, the problems only lasted for about a week but, I am going to play the, "computer problems" card because technically, I can. Heh, heh, heh...that could be considered a play on words, get it, "technical" problems.
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Okay, fine...it wasn't funny...and now on with the story...
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As mentioned in the previous post, (you know, like over a month ago) John's apnea monitor alarming four times in under two hours is what took us to the hospital on August 2nd. The apnea monitor company came to the hospital to trade out the monitor that we had been using and gave us a new one. The monitors are kind of like little computers and are able to hold onto all of their data so that it can be analyzed. The company downloaded the information and found that only two times out of all of the eight or nine times the alarm had sounded in the previous month were, "true apnea spells".
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Well then, as long as it was only two true spells.
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Too bad that it only takes one true apnea spell to do you in.
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The attending physician told us that many things can cause apnea spells. He explained that he thought that acid reflux may have been causing John to stop breathing long enough to make the monitor alarm.
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The truth is, as amazing as modern medicine is, (and believe me, I am inexpressibly grateful for modern medicine) it is not and never will be an exact science. There is no way of really knowing what exactly caused those two, "true apnea." spells.
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My feelings have changed about our little apnea monitor. When I was first went through the training on how to use it I remember being told that many people have a hard time parting with the monitor once their baby is old enough and strong enough not to need it anymore, because of the peace of mind that it affords them. I sat in the training session thinking to myself that I will never be one of those people. I am not sure why the monitor made me so fearful, perhaps I was intimidated by the wires that I would have to contend with or the incredibly loud alarm...whatever it was, I remember scoffing at the idea that I would miss it when the time came to turn it back in. The gentleman from the company that supplied the oxygen tanks and the apnea monitor told us that he has worked with parents that beg to buy an apnea monitor rather than live without it. We began to laugh in that meeting when he shared that one mother refused to let the monitor go even though her baby was too big for the belt that holds the electrodes in place to fit around his chest anymore. He told us that the mother had to adhere the electrodes to her baby's skin with band-aids. He chuckled as he explained that when he visited the home to deliver supplies the baby was practically big enough to answer the door himself.
My feelings have changed about our little apnea monitor. When I was first went through the training on how to use it I remember being told that many people have a hard time parting with the monitor once their baby is old enough and strong enough not to need it anymore, because of the peace of mind that it affords them. I sat in the training session thinking to myself that I will never be one of those people. I am not sure why the monitor made me so fearful, perhaps I was intimidated by the wires that I would have to contend with or the incredibly loud alarm...whatever it was, I remember scoffing at the idea that I would miss it when the time came to turn it back in. The gentleman from the company that supplied the oxygen tanks and the apnea monitor told us that he has worked with parents that beg to buy an apnea monitor rather than live without it. We began to laugh in that meeting when he shared that one mother refused to let the monitor go even though her baby was too big for the belt that holds the electrodes in place to fit around his chest anymore. He told us that the mother had to adhere the electrodes to her baby's skin with band-aids. He chuckled as he explained that when he visited the home to deliver supplies the baby was practically big enough to answer the door himself.
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Wanting desperately to laugh at that moment I chimed in and quipped about how when that baby was old enough to ride a bike he would have his apnea monitor trailing behind him down the street.
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We all had a good laugh. I thought it was very funny.
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That is, until I realized that I have become, "one of those people."
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John is not old enough or strong enough at this point to be without the apnea monitor but I dread the day that we will be without it. I, just like that mother that I mocked (and feel badly for mocking, now), want to hold on to it forever.
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I want John's Kindergarten teacher to have to call me and ask me how to turn off the monitor if it alarms.
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Heck, I want John's future wife to have to call me from their honeymoon locale to ask me how to turn off the apnea monitor if it alarms.
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I do admit that my heart stops each time that alarm sounds, though. The screaming sound that monitor makes has aged me. I was telling a friend the other day, how John has an, "actual age" (starting from when he was actually born) and a, "gestational age" (starting from his original due date) and how we are supposed to take into consideration both when we determine if he is hitting developmental milestones when he should.
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I would say, because of that monitor ,that my gestational age is about...oh...79.
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It alarmed recently while I was driving and I am so grateful that, somehow I managed not to crash. I called Mike and told him something along the lines of, "Not to brag honey ,but I consider today a raging success...I have not gotten anything major accomplished, but the fact that I didn't crash when that thing screamed at me is, in my mind, a job well done."
.The big blessing that came from John going back into the hospital that day was that his blood work revealed that the potassium level in his system was at a, "critical" level. Too much potassium in the body can cause potentially fatal heart problems or other organs in the body, like the liver or the kidneys to fail. Thankfully, his medication was able to be adjusted to bring his potassium down to a safe level.
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The hospital that I delivered at and that John was in the NICU at is a different hospital than the one that John has been admitted to the two times he has had to be re-hospitalized because his pediatrician is affiliated with a different hospital than my OBGYN. The new hospital is considered a, "teaching hospital" and in truth, it has taken a bit of getting used to for me. When the doctors make rounds in the new hospital there is a whole crew of residents and doctors that are in various learning stages of medical school that accompany them. There was several times that I was tempted to say, "While I appreciate that this is a teaching hospital, do all 12 of you (I am not kidding about that number) have to be in here at the same time?" At one point the attending physician heard what he called a, "crinkle" in John's lungs and he wanted all of the medical posse that was with him to take turns listening to the sounds that John's lungs were making. All 12 medical personnel lined up and one by one took turns listening to his lungs. Some were huffing on their stethoscopes in hopes to warm them up but I was concerned that they were putting all manner of germs onto my baby's chest by doing so.
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It actually was kind of funny to see them all lined up, if it weren't so disconcerting to me and kind of sad.
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This last hospitalization was hard for me also in that, it seemed like some of John's doctors' opinions contradicted each other.
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I am so grateful for a gentleman in our ward that...well...he is too humble and what not to fess up to this, but the word on the street is that he was Resident of the Year this year, and is going to be the Head Honcho resident (I think it may be called Chief Resident), next year...came into John's hospital room and took over an hour to explain things to us in detail even though John was not his patient.
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I called his wife Aleasha and told her, "Hey, there is this good looking guy in John's hospital room, right now."
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To which Mike called out, "And Josh is here, too..."
To which Mike called out, "And Josh is here, too..."
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Seriously, thank you, "Dr. Resident of the Year, Head Honcho Next Year (that I think is called Chief Resident), but is too humble and what not to say so, but the Marshmans found out anyway, Josh Smith." You helped us so much.
.We have nicknamed John, "Our Sweet Little Old Man" for a host of reasons...all of them dealing with the fact that he is experiencing things now that generally would be part of daily life for someone much older.
.He has so many doctors that we had to create a notebook just to keep his appointments straight.
He has a list of medications longer than his arm, literally...
He has to take daily breathing treatments. I do love the penguin nebulizer, though. I squealed with delight when I saw that it was cute, rather than, yet another scary looking piece of medical paraphernalia . The man from the medical company that supplies the nebulizers said the cuteness was a marketing ploy. I am a slave to good marketing.

Lookie at the little igloo carrying case.
Another adorable piece of good marketing is the turtle mask for his breathing treatments. The turtle is for the smallest patients. I heard that the next mask larger in size is a fishy.
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Of course, his nasal cannula is something that most patients with lung problems don't wear until much later in life. It took me a while to get used to taping his nasal cannula to his face. I have to use thick pieces of the pink surgical tape because he can accidentally rip it off otherwise.
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You usually see signs about the use of oxygen on the doors of the homes of someone much older.
This is the only picture I have thus far without John's nasal cannula on. Our camera is dying and I have tried to snap several pictures when I am changing out the cannula but the camera often won't work when I try to get the picture. I licked the camera batteries to get this shot. He has to wear his cannula all day but the doctor said he can have it off for a 5 minute span to wash his cheeks.
He smiled at me so sweetly the other day...I tried to capture it but the camera quit on me before I could. I think he is going to have brown eyes.The truth is, I cannot adequately express how greatly we have been blessed throughout this whole ordeal. The prayers, and fasting in his behalf and having his name placed on the temple rolls are truly, truly helping John.
We have been so blessed to be right where we are in Georgia, too. I go to appointments at the hospital all of the time and sit in the waiting room with people that have had to travel upwards of 4 hours one way to come to the Children's Medical Center at this hospital that we have the good fortune to live only 10...or 15 minutes, depending on who is driving, from.
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41 comments:
Lauren, you are posting at an ungodly hour for someone in Georgia!!! But I am so glad to know how it's going. Your little man is looking SO good! I love the pictures. I am so glad things are moving along. Someday he'll be free. Free of being hooked up to stuff.
I never grew attached to the monitor. We had to stop using ours because the heating pad kept making it go off, and he couldn't live without the heating pad because he couldn't keep himself warm. So that thing had a full memory after only a couple of hours. And, we stuck a receiving blanket in there to mute it because it screamed so loud. I know it's to make sure it's heard, but...even muted it was so loud!
Your posts bring back so many memories. All those people making the rounds, the pink tape on the face, the oxygen, the medical supply people...wow. What a pain it all is, but how thankful we can all be that it's available when it's so desperately needed.
I just love your baby. I hope you're hanging in there. Now get some sleep, lady!
Wow I can't believe how big John is! He is adorable and looks pleasantly plump and alert and just cute as can be.
I'm a sucker for good marketing, I kind of want an igloo cooler just for fun!
When I delivered Wells...teaching hospital...11 people in the room as they ripped Wells out with forceps, and they were standing at my head!
He is beautiful! Keep up the good hard work. Your amazing.
Honestly woman with all your dealing with you think we could be mad at you for not posting? I love you and your fam and especially that beautiful baby and I am so glad to hear he is doing well. And it even looks like he might reach linebacker size afterall! :)
I love your awesome sense of humor! And I have to say that John is so beautiful, what a handsome little man. How are the big boys dealing with all of this? I was feeling bad for myself cuz my biggest boy hyperexted his knee and I have to drive to Plano 3 times a week for PT...I'll stop feeling sorry for me over here! Hang in there, all the tubes and equipment will be gone soon, and he'll be healthy and big!!
Dear~ You have got to stop telling me that I am your hero, it has made my head balloon to twice it's normal size.
I totally know what you mean about feeling close to you. We really do have all the same stuff, except we traded your oxygen for a continuous feed pump. I even have The Notebook and medication cards taped up in my kitchen. :)
I can't believe how big he is getting already. I LOVE the pic of him in the tub. Now get some new batteries so I can see more of him. I can't enough!
You are the amazing one! Keep it up!
Thank you for the update. He is so cute and looks like he's getting a little chub on those tiny cheeks (that you get to see for 5 min...!)
Thanks for updating. He's really starting to fill out. I love how you had time to cover his privates with the washcloth, even while licking the batteries. And that penguin is darling.
I remember all the students and interns filing through for Nate's surgeries, and trying to contain their excitement (because congenital glaucoma is quite rare). I just kept thinking, at least he's helping these doctors to help some other baby.
We'll be here whenever you get the chance to fill us in.
Look how much he has grown!! He is such a handsome little guy! He really looks like he is so strong despite his ailments.
I think the "learning hospital" would drive me crazy too. I wonder if you could request that they don't bring in the students or something?
Thanks for the update on sweet Little John. I love hearing about him!
That is a handsome little boy, and dare I say he's looking rather robust. I was expecting scrawny, but he's clearly a well taken care if little champ. I want to cuddle him.
I'm so happy that you have good medical care (even if there are a dozen residents there for every procedure). John is getting so big, and that is great to see.
If it makes you feel any better about having all those residents around, one of the nurses who was helping me while I was in labor told me about a woman who had 26 people in the room during her delivery. I asked if she was having multiples or something. She said, "No, it was her husband's softball team!" Can you imagine?
Thank you for the update. I can't seem to keep my blog updated either, and I don't have anywhere near as good an excuse as you. Just update when you can. We're still praying for you all the time!
Lauren- You are too sweet. I mean, honestly you are! I am so happy that Josh was able to bring some peace to you and Mike.
Little John is getting so big! I can't wait to snuggle on him!!
Love ya friend!
Lauren, you have me in stitches and tears all at the same time. You are a riot and I love the great attitude you have.
Thank you for the update. I think of John a lot and wonder how he is. I think he looks pretty big. How much does he weigh these days?
Keep taking care of yourself and letting others take care of you and your family as well. Wish I were there to do something.
Thanks for the update. I have a notebook like that...but then, I'm old.
He is gorgeous. I'm so happy things are going well.
He is a sweet, gorgeous angel and I'm so grateful for the update! I've been worried, wondering but don't want to bug you.
I am so glad to hear that things are better over there. I have been concerned. You are a trooper! I know I would have gone crazy by now with that monitor!
Little John is so darling. You make adorable boys!
Lauren, he is absolutely beautiful!
Oh my goodness!! He is GORGEOUS!! You and Mike sure do make cute babies~
I totally understand your fear of letting the screaming alarm machine go...I kept ours with both Rachel and Jeffrey for a long, long, long time. I felt like my peace of mind with that machine was cheaper than the therapy I would need without it.
SO>>>>what are you doing for Lauren? How are you taking care of yourself?? Do you take the time to melt down, to look at yourself in the mirror and congratulate yourself for holding it together, take the time for reading a magazine or eating a little bit of chocolate? Please my friend, be kind to yourself through this process. LJ needs you to be fine too.
Love you.
Sweetheart, Little John is sooo cute. He really reminds me of Adam as a baby. He is turning into a little chunk, I want to just come there and squeeze him and gobble him up!
Just imagine your brother John is one of the students learning things from your little John and maybe you won't mind them so much.
Thanks for the update and pics. We love you. MOM
Oh my gosh, he just keeps getting cuter! Lauren, he is so adorable. He's getting so big, too!
I'm totally loving the penguin. It was fun talking with ya the other day, you are so awesome!
Oh, he is so precious! Those great big eyes and long long lashes.
You have an amazing outlook. I want your cute nebulizer, ours is loud and ugly and scares my littlest wheezer.
For what it is worth, I had a "give me grey hair" baby and I look back at all those pics with the tape on her cheeks and the canula and just smile at how much she taught us that first year.
You are amazing. I cannot even imagine the constant worry if he is breathing. Hang in there. This is going to seem like a big blur some day. You all are still in my prayers.
LOL re: your oxygen comment! I figured everything was OK since you're been out and about in the blogosphere. Just don't leave us hanging that long again! Little John is getting so big!
Or would that be Big John?
You are the only person I know who can take a trying situation, and make it into a funny story. Ryan and I pray for baby John often. I am so happy to hear that he is still progressing. We love you all!
Lauren, you are amazing and I am SOOO glad to hear from you again. It's amazing how much that little angel has changed your life- you are the greatest mom and he is growing so healthy and strong! He looks like a little Marshman now which is AWESOME!! I bet your other boys just love him. We keep praying for good things for you...
O.K. Can LJ be any cuter? Oh my goodness! And I am so glad you have the monitor.
We had to leave ours behind when Tino got released from Children's Hospital Oakland. (In order to be released from the hospital he had to be breathing on his own without any apnea episodes for 24 hours AND we had to promise we would keep him on his strict medicine schedule.) Tino just turned 11 last Sunday . . . and about 20 minutes ago I went in to his room to make sure he was still breathing. It's just a built in habit I guess. And for good measure, I went in to Mateo and Sarah's rooms and poked them to make sure they were breathing also.
Hey Marshmans! Awesome update. I am positive that duct tape will help John carry the monitor well into his golden years! Heavenly Father, His Church, your family, and a large multitude of your friends are behind you. Peace my friends.
Love to you and baby John. What a blessing it is to be so close to good medical care. Hang in there, L.
I have wondered about how things are going but I just figured no news is good news and it does sound like good news. I realize all of this must be a huge struggle and trial but it also sounds like your faith is strong. Just remember to take breaks and take care of yourself. Little John is absolutely gorgeous! He could give Hugh Jackman a run for his money!!!
Lauren,
It's so great to see your updated post and the pictures of John. He is sooo adorable. It's incredible the journey you and Tiffany have had this year. Hang in there, and be keep your great sense of humor. Love ya!!!!
half price oxygen? I am totally there. and my kids want to know where they can get one of those turtle masks too! great to talk with you the other day. will call soon again. Oh, and more baby pics please!! w/ or w/o the accouterments!
So good to hear how things are going for you guys and your up beat outlook. We have also had the the medication lists and appointment cards; you will become a walking palm pilot with all the information you remember!
Oh Lauren, you are such a good, caring, sweet mommy to little John! I hope you are all doing well. I love seeing a peek of him in the tub.
Ok, first of all...your blog gets first prize for longest comments and second, we hope you're not getting rained out of your home!
Okay, that little baby is the cutest ever! Especially with the turtle mask on. I'd get one of those just as an accessory! So dang cute!
Good to hear from you. Was it Mike that Geoff was calling every two minutes during the game last Saturday? Annnoyyyyying...... (probably not for Mike, but for me having to listen to it all....)
Things will keep getting betetr and better. Hang in there!
We have the fishy mask.:)
i've been so worried about you, i'm glad that he's growing and doing better! hang in there, lady!
Your baby is absolutely beautiful. I'm glad to hear he is progressing nicely, and sorry to hear about your actual gestational age :)
We have the fishy mask, and I'm with you on the marketing ploy!
What a roller coaster ride for you guys. Hope things continue to get better. Thank goodness for modern medicine, right? He's adorable!
He is so cute! But of course he's yours!
Lauren, I've missed you from the blogging world. My heart goes out to you in all you've been going through. Your little guy looks so strong. I just wrote a blog on thoughts about Elder Eyring's talk & thought of you, because you said you liked that talk so much too.
I can't believe I'm number 40 of your comments. Man, you have quite the fan club. You really do have an amazing sense of humor... ever thought of writing books?
Hey, I've missed you & I'm worried about you! Are you hanging in there? Is cute-darling-delicious-baby doing better? I HOPE SO. Hopefully, you're just simply busy with a baby.
In case it's more than that, though, I've been sending little prayers your way.
xoxo
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